Saturday, September 24, 2011

Back from walk

Walking out.. you said no no .. be here jess.... and we got stuck.. was lovely walking down... what a path.. colourful houses.. the mountain cut off.. many roads we wanted sands to be along ... shhh was bzy time ya.. is fine with us... mike and eric growing fine.. hardly time to angel .. .. Goa seems to be more beautiful even though with increasing warmth and less space.. hahah... the man that drove mom years ago reminded us all of mom.. the days we hardly knew how she thought.. people around have grown older, wiser, some have gone to HIM some have to dilly and drag till time comes to them... House of the Sardine... hahah should i say "Can of Sardine" has not changed colour nor the shape... is still the same as when we were 7 yrs old... though some trees have been cut off and some fallen and yet some of them still standing strong.

So many other things around but our palms so small can hardly hold or carry anything more... like the birds.. we saw looking up and while the tears rolled.. with mad thoughts of Sands... heart was squeezed... why why why was in ears.... which only made the feet rush faster... back to ... Da bow limp hahahah.. the drive was so fast.. we did not even realize.. how quick...

Pacing up and down and you said.. where are we?  and heart started to double up again .. mad as ever jess... traced.. feet back to ummmmh soMeHOW....

was raining...out as we looked... and sitting on flight.. mind flashed back .. to the two nights in GOA...

all people and all people are people everywhere... there will be lots of people to worry about and lots more people to care....
we said whats on our mind... may be not worth to say.. or repeat... but it does give you to solace to say whats in the mind and know you spat it out... and if .. we have to be happy while we here than why not to say?
Rajendra and all at home were nice... cattle all gone..
saw Gangadhar... rolling in bed.. saying.. " i cannot see, i cannot see.. " visions like that reminds...
God what am i holding on too? Beatrice was stunned... but we did say what we had to... and ended with the line .. if only prayers were required at time of admission... Lord i would never have to work.....
When we give .. give willing they say.. never to expect.. but then how come... when we need no one seems to be giving... willing?
hahahahah.. its good.. that we did not expect.. but when razor steps up.. then i guess its time to shave... all bald...

Few memories we carried with wish to let MEN see... but guess.. was not meant to be... Sam Sung ... went to retirement..

Said you love me but you... cannot show.... and i am phool enough to live on that .. so what.. someone has to be the phool... while others are thors... and we end up .. like the humming bird..
Happy moments never cease... all fine.. all well ... yes not much welcome around but we stand as always...till our feet hold...

Balcony green as ever ... birds chirping.. Kalu.. licking .. sweetly.. was playful as ever... ...
moments to hours to days.. and we back on road to desk... heart sank.. sink.. sunk .. think thank ...
Babbu and Monu... lovely ladies growing up... Few own aaah hahaha  is ok.. reading people in the world.. she forgot how to live her own way... not all ways.. just some days..

we yawning. in the atoms of life... growing dimmer in our days... hearts says a lot more than feet can take... or stomach can hold...
come... we pray that MEN may hold... and grow to be ... able enough to smile.. their days... as years go ... and like we think now... and look back saying... "Ah mom always said so... or mom did this or mom lost her mind" love you babies... love you sans.. love you GOD.....